My life is falling apart and I am lost - Page 2

celebratingwomen · October 17th, 2011, 11:17 AM

Good for you wolfangel! I know that your decision to keep a distance with your family is that of a difficult and complicated one. But just because we are bound by blood to people does not mean you have to have a relationship with them. Especially if it is toxic to you. This is no light feat and you should be proud of yourself for making YOU and your wellbeing a priority.

I hear you sistergirl. It's tough standing by friends that you feel are making wrong decisions. But part of being a friend is supporting them in their life and knowing it's their life and their decisions to make. The only thing is that if she has asked for your advice and still does nothing to change it, she loses her right to complain to you about it.

Wolf_angel · October 18th, 2011, 10:01 AM

Thank you celebratingwomen. Tis not a matter of choice. Tis a matter of living and dealing with the side effects of Diabetes. Right now fed up with my daughter. OMG! Anyway, yes its very toxic here. Yet until I can get a job to support myself I am basically screwed here. Yet hope to change that in due course. Family what there is of it, is going to be handed their papers to walk and stay out of my life til they get over themselves. Tired of helping to be treated like a second class citizens who only deserves their scorn and nonsense. Yet too I am not talking to any of them except one son Travis. Yet he doesnt need my woes to worry about. In the meantime going to use my anger and negativity to finish this house. Have a great day!

Wolf_angel · October 23rd, 2011, 08:21 AM

Well last night I received a text message from the husband that said:
"I been doing alotta thinking lately since we dont get along like we use to and dont agree on anything anymore plus im hardly home I think we should go our seprate ways i think u would be much happyier that way."

He is rarely here to work on anything. He knows I am going to school in the hopes of a job. He also knows I dont have money nor job prospects. I have been busy with this house, daughter and newest baby, his dad who has prostate cancer (just recently diagnosed), and the house has been freezing cause no oil or money for it, nor has he set up the oil burner for when we do get oil. Now I have thought things out and if he can support me financially for the house til March 2012 by which time I will have a job, then that would be good. Just not sure right now. Yet he is going to start his DUI classes soon, will lose his drivers license, and thus he will be screwed. Mind you he is back on the drugs again. So I hope today when he shows up he will agree with what I wrote out. This way it protects him for I dont think his Probation Officer would like him driving around in his truck with a 9 mm Ruetger hand gun. Say a few prayers he agrees to my hopes. Then I hope to get him to sign the thing and have daughter witness it. For I can get a divorce yet it would smack him hard. For I have him for adultery, mental abuse, and neglect. Er go I hope he will see what is in his best interest. Wish me luck and a few prayers. Hugs

IRISH_EYES_99 · October 24th, 2011, 12:59 AM

Good Lord Wolfie, If he's drinking & doing drugs & has a hand gun .. get thee to a shelter. It won't be fun but it will be a lot safer. Be safe. Whatever he signs won't mean a thing if he's high when he signs it. I fear if you force his hand it will get violent towards you & the kids. Be safe... be safe... be safe.

Wolf_angel · October 24th, 2011, 08:34 AM

Well IRISH he did sign it and was sober. My daughter was here to witness. Now he went running to his friends and lied. Saying how he wanted to come home and make me happy. He didnt tell them what he said in a text message to me. He knows where I make my home. He wants to be with me he will. But all of this crap he is doing is now smacking him upside the head. Oh well. I have to make my life and move on. He knows what to do to make me happy. But I wont take his crap or anyone's else. So now he knows I am not "Playing his game anymore!"

celebratingwomen · October 24th, 2011, 03:15 PM

Yeah wolf angel!

I can feel the power within you pouring out of my screen. You are a warrior and will be victorious in your life!

Wolf_angel · October 25th, 2011, 08:07 AM

Yes Yes Yes I definitely agree. Yet tis the things and situations that have changed me. Yet I use the positive side of it all. Take the negative into a positive for the best results! LOL Hugs and Thank you

November 21st, 2011, 02:46 PM

is anyone there to talk, i feel so alone!!!!

Wolf_angel · November 22nd, 2011, 09:33 AM

we are here.

IRISH_EYES_99 · November 22nd, 2011, 06:58 PM

Hi hope, If you post whatever it is we will listen <read>. If we can offer advise we will if not we would make suggestions in that direction. Good luck. Post.

rjsfeminist · November 28th, 2011, 04:52 PM

Hope, if you need someone to talk to, we're here, like Irish and Wolf_angel said.

October 18th, 2011, 10:01 AM	#17
Wolf_angel A survivor of chaos Join Date: Dec 2001 Location: Where my heart is Posts: 3,147	Thank you celebratingwomen. Tis not a matter of choice. Tis a matter of living and dealing with the side effects of Diabetes. Right now fed up with my daughter. OMG! Anyway, yes its very toxic here. Yet until I can get a job to support myself I am basically screwed here. Yet hope to change that in due course. Family what there is of it, is going to be handed their papers to walk and stay out of my life til they get over themselves. Tired of helping to be treated like a second class citizens who only deserves their scorn and nonsense. Yet too I am not talking to any of them except one son Travis. Yet he doesnt need my woes to worry about. In the meantime going to use my anger and negativity to finish this house. Have a great day! __________________ May you walk in the shadow of the Great Spirit~To help others is a special gift we can either give or take~The more you give the more you receive~

October 23rd, 2011, 08:21 AM	#18
Wolf_angel A survivor of chaos Join Date: Dec 2001 Location: Where my heart is Posts: 3,147	Well last night I received a text message from the husband that said: "I been doing alotta thinking lately since we dont get along like we use to and dont agree on anything anymore plus im hardly home I think we should go our seprate ways i think u would be much happyier that way." He is rarely here to work on anything. He knows I am going to school in the hopes of a job. He also knows I dont have money nor job prospects. I have been busy with this house, daughter and newest baby, his dad who has prostate cancer (just recently diagnosed), and the house has been freezing cause no oil or money for it, nor has he set up the oil burner for when we do get oil. Now I have thought things out and if he can support me financially for the house til March 2012 by which time I will have a job, then that would be good. Just not sure right now. Yet he is going to start his DUI classes soon, will lose his drivers license, and thus he will be screwed. Mind you he is back on the drugs again. So I hope today when he shows up he will agree with what I wrote out. This way it protects him for I dont think his Probation Officer would like him driving around in his truck with a 9 mm Ruetger hand gun. Say a few prayers he agrees to my hopes. Then I hope to get him to sign the thing and have daughter witness it. For I can get a divorce yet it would smack him hard. For I have him for adultery, mental abuse, and neglect. Er go I hope he will see what is in his best interest. Wish me luck and a few prayers. Hugs __________________ May you walk in the shadow of the Great Spirit~To help others is a special gift we can either give or take~The more you give the more you receive~ Last edited by Wolf_angel; October 23rd, 2011 at 08:23 AM. Reason: Edit words

October 24th, 2011, 12:59 AM	#19
IRISH_EYES_99 Member Join Date: Feb 2001 Location: in the state of confusion :) Posts: 3,524	Good Lord Wolfie, If he's drinking & doing drugs & has a hand gun .. get thee to a shelter. It won't be fun but it will be a lot safer. Be safe. Whatever he signs won't mean a thing if he's high when he signs it. I fear if you force his hand it will get violent towards you & the kids. Be safe... be safe... be safe. __________________ Smiles are contagious. It's ok to pass them on. *

October 24th, 2011, 08:34 AM	#20
Wolf_angel A survivor of chaos Join Date: Dec 2001 Location: Where my heart is Posts: 3,147	Well IRISH he did sign it and was sober. My daughter was here to witness. Now he went running to his friends and lied. Saying how he wanted to come home and make me happy. He didnt tell them what he said in a text message to me. He knows where I make my home. He wants to be with me he will. But all of this crap he is doing is now smacking him upside the head. Oh well. I have to make my life and move on. He knows what to do to make me happy. But I wont take his crap or anyone's else. So now he knows I am not "Playing his game anymore!" __________________ May you walk in the shadow of the Great Spirit~To help others is a special gift we can either give or take~The more you give the more you receive~

October 25th, 2011, 08:07 AM	#22
Wolf_angel A survivor of chaos Join Date: Dec 2001 Location: Where my heart is Posts: 3,147	Yes Yes Yes I definitely agree. Yet tis the things and situations that have changed me. Yet I use the positive side of it all. Take the negative into a positive for the best results! LOL Hugs and Thank you __________________ May you walk in the shadow of the Great Spirit~To help others is a special gift we can either give or take~The more you give the more you receive~

October 17th, 2011, 11:17 AM	#16
celebratingwomen Member Join Date: Sep 2011 Location: Edmonton, Canada Posts: 11	Good for you wolfangel! I know that your decision to keep a distance with your family is that of a difficult and complicated one. But just because we are bound by blood to people does not mean you have to have a relationship with them. Especially if it is toxic to you. This is no light feat and you should be proud of yourself for making YOU and your wellbeing a priority. I hear you sistergirl. It's tough standing by friends that you feel are making wrong decisions. But part of being a friend is supporting them in their life and knowing it's their life and their decisions to make. The only thing is that if she has asked for your advice and still does nothing to change it, she loses her right to complain to you about it.

October 24th, 2011, 03:15 PM	#21
celebratingwomen Member Join Date: Sep 2011 Location: Edmonton, Canada Posts: 11	Yeah wolf angel! I can feel the power within you pouring out of my screen. You are a warrior and will be victorious in your life!

November 21st, 2011, 02:46 PM	#23
hope Guest Posts: n/a	pure sadness is anyone there to talk, i feel so alone!!!!

November 22nd, 2011, 09:33 AM	#24
Wolf_angel A survivor of chaos Join Date: Dec 2001 Location: Where my heart is Posts: 3,147	we are here. __________________ May you walk in the shadow of the Great Spirit~To help others is a special gift we can either give or take~The more you give the more you receive~

November 22nd, 2011, 06:58 PM	#25
IRISH_EYES_99 Member Join Date: Feb 2001 Location: in the state of confusion :) Posts: 3,524	Hi hope, If you post whatever it is we will listen <read>. If we can offer advise we will if not we would make suggestions in that direction. Good luck. Post. __________________ Smiles are contagious. It's ok to pass them on. *

November 28th, 2011, 04:52 PM	#26
rjsfeminist Member Join Date: May 2001 Location: west central Florida Posts: 1,564	Hope, if you need someone to talk to, we're here, like Irish and Wolf_angel said.