Depression

I am really depressed and tired. Today I cried almost all morning. I really just need someone to talk to. I tried to go to your chat room but I couldn't get to it. I have pirch..I guess I was doing something wrong.

Well if anyone is out there please reply. I would love to chat with someone that understands.

From
Missy

[buggaboo]

Hi Missy, I'm new to this forum too, I came browsing and spotted your name and recognised it from TF. Sounds like you are feeling really low. I would be happy to listen, as I have been there quite often myself. Take care, I'll pop in later to see if you have posted.

{{{{{{{Missy}}}}}}}}}

Hi-
I have not been back here to wow in avery long time. I use to be very active with many good friends. So much has gone on in my life and I am at a very low point in my life when I am use to being very positive! I lost my mother 4 months ago to cancer! She was my best friend. She was only 63. I had to be the care giver of her pain and now I feel like I did something wrong. Yes I know I was helping her not feel the pain of passing away- BUT it hurts so bad, knowing that I was the one who had to give her the pain meds to help her, knowing she was leaving me and my daughter and my dad and so many loved ones. I have been so depressed about all this and pretend to the world I'm okay. I wish I could tell the people that are close to me that I am falling apart,but they would say I'm just having a bad day and snap out of it. I'm the one that is always ther for them, so they do not know how to have me need them! I'm the STRONG one, the ROCK. But I have never felt so weak and alone in my life. Yes I have been the strong one because I have had to my whole life on the outside but inside I don't think I really am- but I guess i must be because all I know is when someone needs a lift in life they call on me. Well I don't want to keep this to long so if anyone wants to talk just say hey, I'm RED-Talk to you soon !!!!!

[Karat]

I am glad I found this forum. I didn't realize it was here until I chatted with BirdWow last evening. I can identify with almost all of the posts I read, and I read them all. Antiana, congrats! I am not going to post anything at the moment about where I have been and where I am, just feeling very confuddled at the moment. Not sure myself where I am. Would someone point me to Chat? That always helps!

[LiamFan!]

Karat:

Go here for instructions on how to connect to chat:

http://www.wowwomen.com/wowchat.html

Have fun!

Oh....um....I think I just figured out you were joking.....never mind! ;-)

[susieB28]

{{{Karat}}}

{{{Liam}}} <G>

[Stophie]

I haven't really felt the need to post here for quite some time. To a degree I see that as a good thing...I haven't felt like this in quite some time. Bad thing is when it does hit...it hits hard. I have alot of issues going on right now and I'm sure that plays a part in how I feel. But I wonder if it isn't always there...underlying just waiting for another traumatic/dramatic experience to happen to unleash it once again. All I ask is keep me in your thoughts. I feel more down than I have ever felt before and I never thought I could feel worse than I did then. I don't like to air my issues in the rooms and maybe if I did I would feel better. Just sometimes I don't know who I can trust--what shoulders are truly available and which are just psuedo. Sheesh, I'm a mess.

[susieB28]

{{Stophie}} I know we dont know each other well, but I will listen any time you need someone to... I think alot of us at one time or another, have found life a little overwhelming... And I know that most of our roomies are truly sincere, and would feel the same as I do. Please feel free to open up in chat, if that is what you want to do. I think that is what our wonderful chat room is for!

susieB28

xoxox

[Stophie]

((((((( susie ))))))))) Thanx I sincerely appreciate your openness and genuine concern. It's hard, I've been coming to WS for over a year and still don't feel comfortable being open about myself. I am not deceptive about me just keep alot to myself. I know I would feel better if I just had someone to share with but it's difficult when you don't already have an established relationship with someone so you feel comfortable sharing without coming across as whining or whatnot. Thanx again. It truly means alot.

[Karat]

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Hi ALL! In my earlier post I could not
explain what was going on with my depression... Geeze, a lite bulb went Off, after talking with BirdWow, I thought to myself, DUH, you took yourself off the meds... I am so stubborn, always thinking I can handle life on my terms... it just doesn't work that way... I keep thinking about what someone told me a long time ago about Depression; "Everyone experiences depression, most people have a reason to be depressed; it is when you have no reasons is when you start exploring a depression disorder"; That made so much sense to me and gave me some relief. I was diagnosed at age 35 with chronic depression; but now that I look back - depression was in my life a lot longer than I thought. Good News is I am back on my meds and find myself being more balanced on a daily basis. It is a constant struggle but my peace of mind and sanity is worth it. And one last thing, Thank you Dr. Hilie for your email, I tried to reply but the message came back. Could you try again?

(((((((((((((((HUGS ALL)))))))))))))))))

[Sunshine]

[quote]Originally posted by Karat
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Hi ALL! In my earlier post I could not
explain what was going on with my depression... Geeze, a lite bulb went Off, after talking with BirdWow, I thought to myself, DUH, you took yourself off the meds... I am so stubborn, always thinking I can handle life on my terms... it just doesn't work that way... I keep thinking about what someone told me a long time ago about Depression; "Everyone experiences depression, most people have a reason to be depressed; it is when you have no reasons is when you start exploring a depression disorder"; That made so much sense to me and gave me some relief. I was diagnosed at age 35 with chronic depression; but now that I look back - depression was in my life a lot longer than I thought. Good News is I am back on my meds and find myself being more balanced on a daily basis. It is a constant struggle but my peace of mind and sanity is worth it. And one last thing, Thank you Dr. Hilie for your email, I tried to reply but the message came back. Could you try again?

(((((((((((((((HUGS ALL)))))))))))))))))

You wrote about going off of your meds! Well, it really struck a nerve for me...as I have done that most of my life....and I cannot seem to....or don't want to figure out why it is that I still feel so badly all of the time. The last time I discontitued meds was nearly 7 months ago. I have to say, I feel better than the other times I have done this.....and my life is more manageable, but I still ought to be on meds to help me be that much more stable. Never seem to get myself to the doctor though. Will have to get a grip on that one of these days soon! Waiting for insurance to be in effect on May 1st! whooo hoooo! And am looking forward to a bit of an "upward spiral" for a change. Sunshine!

[Sabra]

Clinical depression is an imbalance of serotonin in your brain. It is nothing to be ashamed of or hide and to go on and off meds only causes a yoyo effect, which causes lots of problems, worsening symptoms.

When I finally decided to look into myself and get help, I was told I was chronically clinically depressed and probably from a very young age. I used to self medicate with alcohol and now am totally alcohol free and have been for quite some time. I still have down days, still have crying jags and periods of intense feelings of "downness:" BUT this is normal for anyone. What I don't do anymore is entertain thoughts of suicide and believe me I had been on the edge of ending it all, many times throughout my life.

[Gypserose62]

this is my first post in all the years i have been with ws and i want everyone to know i have suffered for almost 20 years from depression and have been on numerous meds for it and nothing helps have seen tons of drs and therapists have been told that i may never recover fully due to meds i must take daily for asthma but hey i have to go on living i cant keep it all to myself which is what i do mostly i have a tuff time talking about my depression but you all have given me a new hope that some day it will get better for me my depression is why you all see me in spurts alot then not at all for a long while. i just have to work through things a bit at a time am curently on prozac to help but its not that great hoping for a miracle i guess and like some of you i hide my depression well but refuse to let it rule my life well enough whinning lol i love all you roomies and if any of you ever need to talk im here for ya thanks for letting me air my feelings here

[Cinderellen]

((((((Gypserose))))))) I've suffered from depression for a long time too. When I finally sought help, my doc told me it was very likely that I'd been depressed since early adolescence. I'm currently on Prozac, and probably will be for a long long time, but I finally feel like I have meaning. I don't believe that's good or necessary to hide the fact that I'm taking Prozac, or that I have suffered from depression in the first place. It's a very common clinical disorder and nothing to be ashamed of. What I grow weary of are people that tell me "oh I just think positively." With depression, it isn't a matter of just changing your attitude, it's a matter of correcting a clinical imbalance in your brain. The sooner people realize that, the sooner they can be supportive to those of us that need it. I think that by being open about it, I can increase awareness for those that need to "wake up."

[Sabra]

Gypserose, my advice is to talk to your pharmacist about drug interactions. This is what they do and they can and will tell you what meds should be used with your asthma medications and they can tell you what your asthma drugs will negate.
In a poll taken by a reputable university less than 40% of physicians can tell you about specific interactions of different drugs with each other. There are far to many different drugs on the market and this is what a pharmacist does. Perhaps all you will need is to use the expertise of your pharmacist, who has a list of all of your meds, to get an antidepressant which will work for you.

Hey Cinderellen, maybe we should form a club for those of us who suffer from depression <G>